Why did I typically binge?
Because I thought it would be fun.
We all have our primary reason for doing it, and most of the time this was mine.
I was bored, lonely, tired, feeling down, and what did I think would bring excitement into my life?
Eating a lot of food.
Thinking about what I was going to eat was fun, buying what I was going to eat was fun, eating was fun.
Until it wasn’t anymore.
It wasn’t long until the fun turned into pain – physical and emotional.
I wanted to stop eating, but couldn’t get myself to do it. Feeling like you have no control isn’t fun.
I ate until I felt physically ill. That’s not fun either.
When the time would come that I wanted to binge, I didn’t look ahead to what the outcome would be. Or if I did, I chose to not care.
I chose to ignore the inevitable pain and focus on what would be fun.
I think the reason I was able to ignore it was because I’d think this time would be different. But it wasn’t.
It wasn’t because I was still in that headspace – I was in binge mode, and I didn’t know how to get out of it.
I’ve talked before about how we lie to ourselves to justify binge eating. This was my most common lie and I believed it every time.
But now I don’t.
Binge eating is never fun. It always ends in pain. Every. Single. Time.
You feel awful physically, you regret everything, you feel guilty, you feel frustrated with yourself wondering why this keeps happening to you and when it’s going to stop.
None of that is fun.
When you start thinking about how binge eating is fun, think about the whole experience.
It’s all included. What happens afterward is part of it, it matters and it lingers.
There is way more pain than fun in binge eating. Choose to remember that.
If you want help getting yourself to believe binge eating isn’t fun even in the moments when you think that it is, or if you want help finding your primary reason why you do it, let’s talk about it.
Schedule a free mini session phone call with me and we can break this down and figure it out.
You get to believe whatever you want, it just takes a bit of work to get from your old beliefs to the new one. Let’s get you there.